A day to forget

So, still doing this whole 'lonely' vs. 'lonesome' thing..... not a great day teaching, but not terrible. Then my volleyball team decides to nail their feet to the floor and they lose in 2 games, the last one's score being 25-6. ouch. the other 8th grade team lost in 3 games, the third game was 27-25 but they lost after being ahead 24-10. What's that about. Plus, it was away (a little over an hour) and one of the 7th grade coaches decided we needed to stop at a fast food place to eat (25 thirteen year old girls, and NOT 'to go'). so i'm home an hour later than i had expected, my daughter staying at someone's house she's never been at (doing us a HUGE favor). pissed isn't even close to the word of the day...... i actually cried some on the bus ride home..... i hate nights like this.

hopefully, tomorrow is a better day. hey, we're starting the Declaration of Independence tomorrow.... I wonder how many of them (8th grade!) will realize that there's a connection to the 4th of July....... sad huh?

Alright - going to finish my glass of wine, and head in to bed. This day needs to end.

More than a year??????

I've been feeling lonely. Actually, when I really started thinking about it, there is a big difference between lonliness and feeling alone. I have been feeling alone, not so much lonely. Lonely, to me, means that you don't have anyone - you spend most of your time by yourself, and do not wish to. I have friends, lots of people who know me (on account of my profession), family. But nothing seems to shake the feeling I have had lately of just being utterly and completely alone in the world. It makes it difficult to look at anything in a positive light. It makes it hard to want to keep on breathing sometimes.....

*sigh* I guess I should go to bed. Gotta start all over tomorrow.